Correction.

Soo, in my last post I wrote that I thought my separate interview stations went quite well. After going over what I said, and doing lots of thinking, I have come to the conclusion that it didn't go well at all. Every time I think about some of the stupid stuff I said, I don't know whether to cry or laugh.

 And whenever someone asks me how it went, I just say it was good. Lately it's been feeling like people are out to see me fail. They tell me how difficult medicine is, how I'm not really cut out for such a career and how I might not even get 3 As at A-Level. Oh, and it has become quite common for people to greet me with the words, 'still not heard anything back?', with a pitying look. I try to ignore it and stay optimistic but it's getting difficult.

Some examples of my stupidity during the interview:

1-  I was talking about the difficulties of being a doctor and my mind went blank. The first thing I blurted out was 'it's not like Scrubs!' Ughh. Interviewer's response: *..ha.. (Only laughing because he so obviously pities me). Then I come out with, 'errr, they have to work long hours...' I had so many points in my head but nothing was coming out!

2- I was saying stuff about my hobbies and said playing badminton and debating helps me to relieve stress. Interviewer: 'what?! debating relieves stress? I'd think it would increase stress!' Me: 'um, it allows me to blow off steam?'  -___-

These are just the ones off the top of my head, there's quite a few more... Oh well, just trying not to think about it to much, and also hoping for some kind of miracle that doesn't involve me getting rejected!

Sorry for the depressing post, guys. Hope everyone had a good Christmas and that the new year brings good news for those waiting for a reply from universities! ^_^

The interview...

So, I had my interview at Manchester last week (15th December). I really don't know how it went. It was okay, my mother's reply when I told her that: 'okay? just okay? what does that even mean?' The thing is, I did well in some parts and not so well in others.

My interview was at 08:45am so I had to set off pretty early (at 7!) Even though we got into Manchester in about 20 minutes, we didn't get to the medical school until 08:15 - we got lost! So yeah, that really didn't help my already frayed nerves. And to top it all off I really wasn't feeling very well :(

The interview at Manchester is a little different to most interviews. You first have a group interview with other applicants (the part I was most dreading), where you discuss a scenario and try to come to a decision about what you think would be the best thing to do. Then you have 3 separate individual interview stations: one is about your PS and motivation for medicine, another is about how the group task went and the last one is an ethical scenario.

My group were all really nice, so that kind of calmed me down a little. But not enough. I only managed to get a couple of sentences out during the group task - my mind just went blank and most of the points I thought of had already been said. After that, we all went to the waiting room. At this point, all that was going through my head was REJECTION!

But, the 3 separate interview stations went quite well. The interviews were fairly relaxed and all the interviewers were really nice! It was more like we were just having a chat rather than them shooting questions at me (like I had imagined). The ethical question did stump me for a while but the interviewer pushed me quite a bit and I think I came up with some good points.

So yeah. That's it. I'm trying my best not to think too much about it but it's all I can think about! I just keep coming up with better answers that I could have given. I just really hope I did enough to get an offer, it's al I want!!

Also checked TSR this morning and people are starting to get offers from Manchester - I can't stop checking my emails! >.<

A visit to the doctors

Went to see my GP today and was told that I have chronic tension-type headache. A fancy way of saying 'you're stressing too much so your head hurts!' The doctor's advice: try not to stress! Much easier said than done. I told him that I've applied for medicine and I'm stressing about my interview and A-Levels. He just laughed and said the stress has only begun. -____-

The thing is though I really don't mind stress. I've been stressed for the last year and have kinda got used to it. I'm prepared to go through a whole heap o stress, it'll be more than worth it if I become a doctor. :)

Also had a blood test, the nurse jabbed the needle in so hard, my arm's still hurting! :/

Rain and aeroplanes.

My flight is booked for tommorow, can't wait! I really miss the rain (yes, I love rain). Have been checking the weather forecast and there's some snow warnings! Snow is great, well until it freezes over and I have to run to the shops. Then it's not so nice. >.<

I got an email from Liverpool yesterday, the subject was 'Liverpool Medical School' so I was super excited, turns out they just wanted to ask something about my grades! :(

I've been doing some prep from the ISC book - the hardest question by far is 'Why Medicine?' I know why I want to do medicine, the answer seems great in my head but when I come to actually telling someone why, it ends up sounding like a load of cliched crap. I really need to do well at my Manchester interview, since I'm getting the feeling that this is gonna be my only interview, but as long as I manage to get an offer I really won't mind. When I'm really nervous, my mind tends to go completely blank and my voice goes all weird. And I know I'm gonna be EXTREMELY nervous at my interview. Oh well, just have to do loads of prep and hope for the best.

Hm, I think that's all for now. My room's a tip and I've yet to start packing (why do I always leave everything to the last minute?), so I'll go do that now. I'll probably blog after my interview now, wish me luck! ^_^