Wednesday, 18 January 2012

Get over it.

I've finally gotten over the whole 'first rejection' thing (yea, it took me a while).

Still no news from the other 3 unis.

I think what really let me down at my Manchester interview was my complete lack of confidence. I've always had very low confidence but have gotten a lot better in the last few years. But on the day of my interview, all my hard work just did a u-turn and I reverted back into the *extremely shy and unable to convey my thoughts into words* person that I was some years ago.

I'm worried that the same is gonna happen IF (big IF) I end up getting any more interviews. I'm secretly kind of hoping that I  maybe end up getting rejections (I know, I don't really understand it either..) A gap year will do me  a lot of good. I'll be able to do a lot more voluntary work than I did this time and I'm sure I'll be able to improve my confidence and whatnot. I'd also really love to work as a HCA.

Meh, I dunno, nothing's going to plan this year. I just think a gap year is gonna be the best thing for me. I've actually had thoughts about withdrawing from everywhere and just completely focusing on A Levels (why, oh why, did I decide to self-teach?!) Urgh, incredibly confused and unsure right now. >.<

And thanks for the comments on my last post guys, I've now realised that it wasn't the end of the world. :)

Wednesday, 4 January 2012


I'm absolutely gutted. I think I can safely say this is the worst day of my life. I'm so upset. :(