Wednesday, 18 January 2012

Get over it.

I've finally gotten over the whole 'first rejection' thing (yea, it took me a while).

Still no news from the other 3 unis.

I think what really let me down at my Manchester interview was my complete lack of confidence. I've always had very low confidence but have gotten a lot better in the last few years. But on the day of my interview, all my hard work just did a u-turn and I reverted back into the *extremely shy and unable to convey my thoughts into words* person that I was some years ago.

I'm worried that the same is gonna happen IF (big IF) I end up getting any more interviews. I'm secretly kind of hoping that I  maybe end up getting rejections (I know, I don't really understand it either..) A gap year will do me  a lot of good. I'll be able to do a lot more voluntary work than I did this time and I'm sure I'll be able to improve my confidence and whatnot. I'd also really love to work as a HCA.

Meh, I dunno, nothing's going to plan this year. I just think a gap year is gonna be the best thing for me. I've actually had thoughts about withdrawing from everywhere and just completely focusing on A Levels (why, oh why, did I decide to self-teach?!) Urgh, incredibly confused and unsure right now. >.<

And thanks for the comments on my last post guys, I've now realised that it wasn't the end of the world. :)


  1. I'm pretty shy too. I'm one of those people who likes to just watch things unfold, rather than being at the heart of the commotion, and I'm really not good at singing my own praises. The best piece of advise I read and used and now pass on to you is to believe in yourself. If you don't think you can do it, you can't even begin to try and convince a medical school you can. If you don't believe in yourself, why should they? You know you have it in you to be an awesome Dr, why else would you apply? And, you know you have it in you to do well at their course, why else would you apply there? Repeat that to yourself, and pretend in a 'fake it til you make it' way and go to your other interviews to prove to them what you and your friends and family already know - that you CAN do this, this IS the path for you, you haven't made this decision lightly, you just need the chance.

  2. Hey thanks for the comment, really appreciate it:). Don't worry, no news is good news as you haven't been rejected yet, and let me tell you don't let your manchester interview get you down the MMI interview format is a crap interview method the traditional interview method is different and I think better. Good luck for the rest of your app and don't worry you have an amazing UKCAT, I could only dream of.

  3. I've been reading some of your stuff, and great Blog!
    I'm an undergrad too, trying to make it. I just started my blog as well...any advice? Also where's a link so I can follow your updates?!/GirlHippocratic